So yesterday was one of those days where I let myself get maxed out. It wasn't one or two big things that pushed me there, just a bunch of little things. Lots of things to care about. I was doing fine carrying each of these 'cares' until I had a conversation with someone very close to me (no names will be used to protect the innocent). . .
It was not meant to be a finger-pointing conversation, but a comment was made that I "need to be passionate about SOMETHING." That went all over me - and not in a good way. I got quiet and the conversation ended. I hung up the phone and sat there. How could I care any MORE about anything?! Don't they know that I care about everything?! And I began making a mental list of all the things that I HAVE to care about. (Come on, you do this too sometimes, right?)
- I have to care about the laundry.
- I have to care about homework.
- I have to care about work (I don't know, something about getting paid for a job well done)
- I have to care about so-and-so in the hospital.
- I have to care about baseball or basketball (and the little people who love it so much).
- I have to care about who likes what type of cereal.
- I have to care about whose turn it was to rotate in certain positions at church.
- I have to care about my part in the upcoming conference and all the details and those coming.
And it went on. My sad little pity party. All these cares that I have to have - and when do I get to care about the things I want to care about. My stuff, my way, me?
Lovely. Just pure loveliness and warmth radiating from me. Boo!
That's when the verse came to mind - 1 Peter 5:7 - "Cast all your care upon Him, for He cares for you."
I've heard it before, quoted it, given it to other people. But yesterday, it was mine. It was made real. All of those cares (and they are all good ones, by the way), brought to Him and what does He do?
It was not meant to be a finger-pointing conversation, but a comment was made that I "need to be passionate about SOMETHING." That went all over me - and not in a good way. I got quiet and the conversation ended. I hung up the phone and sat there. How could I care any MORE about anything?! Don't they know that I care about everything?! And I began making a mental list of all the things that I HAVE to care about. (Come on, you do this too sometimes, right?)
- I have to care about the laundry.
- I have to care about homework.
- I have to care about work (I don't know, something about getting paid for a job well done)
- I have to care about so-and-so in the hospital.
- I have to care about baseball or basketball (and the little people who love it so much).
- I have to care about who likes what type of cereal.
- I have to care about whose turn it was to rotate in certain positions at church.
- I have to care about my part in the upcoming conference and all the details and those coming.
And it went on. My sad little pity party. All these cares that I have to have - and when do I get to care about the things I want to care about. My stuff, my way, me?
Lovely. Just pure loveliness and warmth radiating from me. Boo!
That's when the verse came to mind - 1 Peter 5:7 - "Cast all your care upon Him, for He cares for you."
I've heard it before, quoted it, given it to other people. But yesterday, it was mine. It was made real. All of those cares (and they are all good ones, by the way), brought to Him and what does He do?
Take care of me.
So, I will continue to accept the responsibility of caring for others - and the next step of taking those cares and laying them out before His feet - and know that He's caring for me. He's got my back! Love. . .
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